Tag: life
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Fasting Day 24 of 40: Thinking is Creation
I’ve done the following thousands of times: I would be upset with someone and expect a confrontation of some kind and start playing out the argument in my head before it happened. More often then not, a disagreement would take place. I’ve spent days’ worth of my life fighting battles in my mind before they…
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Fasting Day 23 of 40: Exerciseism and Exorcism
From the time I woke up and opened my eyes, it took me about an hour to put my feet to the floor, and another 20 minutes to stand up. Every excuse imaginable came up. “I am tired,” “I did too much yesterday,” “Today is a good day to sleep in.” Those might have been…
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Fasting Day 22 of 40: Boredom
Out at sea, the wind drifts away and all sailors lament. The doldrums have come. The dread for these sailors is that the life giving and moving wind has gone away, and there is no knowing when it picks back up again. It could be days or weeks. The whole time you have little to…
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Fasting Day 21 of 40: Energy and Movement
We wade through pools of abundance daily. Every breath we take, every step we make, we are swirling the photons of light from the sun, and exchanging charged electrons, ions, atoms, and protons constantly with our environment. The light we see, the sounds we hear, the things we touch, all energy in one form or…
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Fasting Day 20 of 40: Courage
There have been many times in my life where I stopped just short of the goal. Most of the work was done, but I couldn’t take those few final steps. A critical voice begging for more perfection or fear and doubt would creep in and I would stop and turn away. I’ve done this with…
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Fasting Day 19 of 40: Eternal Student
We are all students. No matter our skill level and profession, there is an aspect of our exploration that has not been discovered yet. It can be holding a tool differently, resonating a different part of the throat as we sing, or catching a turn more smoothly as we drive. Everything we do provides an…
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Fasting Day 18 of 40: Truth
As a child I found lying to be safer than the truth at times. I was raised in an Orthodox religion and fear of punishment frequently meant hiding what had happened, or straight out lying. If you get caught, you get in trouble. If you lie about it and hide, you’re in the clear, or…
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Fasting Day 17 of 40: Orderly Rebellion
When I was about 6 years old, my father told me I could have any change that fell from his dresser. Pennies, nickels, dimes, and quarters, are a lot of money for a small child so I turned to ingenuity. I began to sweep the money off the dresser and onto the floor, then pick…
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Fasting Day 16 of 40: Creation
As a young boy I asked my mother about “the beginning.” It was a line of what came before that, and what came before that, until of course we inevitably came to the answer of God and infinity. Her advice at the time was “don’t think about it too much, it will make your head…
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Fasting Day 15 of 40: Receiving
So much has changed already that there are not many words I can use to convey what it is I am thinking and feeling anymore. I feel like a beacon and conveyor of thoughts. They ease into my awareness and move right through. Some are still memories and regrets, others wonderful ideas. Each one says…
Ryan Orion 