With every thrum of the heart beat blood pulses and oxygen fills us. On the down beat we expel that which is no longer serving, C02 and the like, and on the in-breath we bring in vital new life force. The rhythm of the two brings us closer to ourselves. Our heart is the feeler of our whole system. Where the blood flows, so too does our awareness. This goes beyond the physical and into our emotions and psyche as well.
I had noticed a numbness to my toes lately. I was surprised to discover (upon asking them) that I had not always been kind to them in the winter. I had ignored the signals of my body and not kept them warm. Conversely I had also ignored their advice in wearing socks and shoes too tightly during the warm months, creating inflammation and causing a deadening sensation at the tips. I asked my toes how I could help in the healing and all they said was “feel me.” I listened and found that through my heart beat, they began to heal. The simple sensation of sensation itself is revitalizing and they have begun to feel more like me. In this I have been given more nudges to utilize them more as I walk, each step empowering each individual toe. The experience has been deeply rewarding and self-affirming to the power of listening to the body.
Within my emotions, I ask my heart what I am feeling or what needs to be felt. A wave of thought and feeling comes through and I am called to cry, rest, or meditate as I express. With every beat of my ever loving heart, my body and mind feel into what is needed and allows for it to come forth. I do love my heart, and it is not special in this. Each of us have this wonderful healing and connecting power within us for the sake of empathy with ourselves and with others.
The mind is knowing and the heart is wise. When the two are combined the whole vessel seeks paths of greater coherence and unity. In working with the signals of our inner being and our outter vessel we can release the pains and “mistakes” of yesterday and learn from them. It is from all of the oopsies that I have made that I have learned how to clean and take care of myself. With the heart as the mediator and guide for our lives we can heal and grow with ease. Simply feel into it. If you have not done this in a while, fear not. There is no chastisement from the heart, only forgiveness and understanding. It is our connection to divine love and will always provide what is needed when it is needed. All we have to do is feel, and listen. The heartbeat does the rest.
All the Love,
Ryan Orion
Fasting Notes:
I was not sure I would make it out of my sleeping mat today. It is as if all of the last month has made itself known here and now. I am blessed with the strength to write this and for that I am grateful. Perhaps I am subconsciously preparing for the next few days of interviews and the live event on Wednesday night.
I have been tempted as never before. All of the old foods that I love in the form of burritos, chicken salad sandwiches, flavored almonds, fresh pineapple and more, were readily available and freely given yesterday. Everytime I walked to the bathroom or filled my water, I was there in the kitchen, just looking at it. The thought of “no one would know if you took just a little.” kept on popping up. I would know and that is enough for me. I can wait two more days. It is a promise to myself. I intend to keep those from now on.
I am not editing today, so what you read is a first draft.
Ryan Orion 
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