Howdy, thank you for joining me on another day of adventure. Today is day 5. It feels like a blur. Each day comes and goes a little smoother and faster than the last. To highlight some of the rules, no food, no teas, no toothpaste, nothing exogenous enters my body except water and salt. I currently am still quite active and feel the need to replenish some minerals. As I begin to move around less and less this feeling may subside. I am using some soap on my body, but may also stop at some point in the future. I’ve been getting the nudge to use less and less each time I shower.
The intention is to truly no myself as me beyond any external stimulus. At this time I am very particular about what enters my consciousness. Social Media, movies, movies, books, music are either completely out or used in the form of upliftment such as spiritual texts, frequency music and business. I still have obligations in the form of my work and relationships that need tending, but I feel I will move deeper into myself and move away from most of it for a time.
All of that being said, here are some reflections from the past few days:
Much of this has opened my eyes to the fact of freewill and choice. By choosing to say no to so many things I have placed my self in a position to feel lacking. I still want food. I still want to watch movies. I still want some folk music playing in my ears. The desires have not gone away, but rather my attention to them. I felt a lot of agitation the first few days but it has all mostly ceased. I have chosen to place my attention elsewhere.
Any time I feel symptoms or intense fatigue there is this knowing that I can choose to feel that or feel energized. It is really quite strange. I have strong downswings with thoughts like “I can’t go on” or “I’m too tired.” These thoughts are seen and embraced. Sometimes they get the better of me and I choose to feel exhausted and whiny. As soon as I remember it is a choice I start to start choosing to feel another way which returns my power to me.
This has a lot to do with subjective reality and objective reality. Objectively my physical body is tired and seeking food. the Subjective is where I choose how I feel about it, and how much I want to play into that story. It’s fun to whine sometimes, but to do so all day is boring for everyone. So I change the story. This is done by continually asking for help from God and Spirit. Songs that uplift me will start playing through my ears. Words of encouragement play on repeat “You CAN do it, you CAN do it.” And that hard moment fades away as I choose to listen to them.
I have felt this choice mostly with the fatigue. It sneaks in and that old familiar voice starts telling me the I can’ts and I shouldn’ts. It can be persuasive and pervasive if you let it roam. This is when I realized it is a choice. The second the thought came to me I chose to feel energized and immediately felt better.
Within meditation I have been shown a way to pull Mana from the ether. The stories of old from the Bible and other sources speak of Mana falling from the heaven. It is the form of universal energy. We naturally breathe this in and out of us all the time. We use less of it when we eat because we expect our food to energize us. This Ether is all around and provisioned from God. It is the only way I will be able to sustain myself over the coming weeks. As I expect less energy from food and release the story of I have to have it, I can tune more and more into the Universal Flow of energy and breathe in from that stream.
Beyond Mana, I can feel the suns rays filling me up. We never stopped being photosynthetic when we branched from plants all those millions of years ago. In fasting I am finding energy from every source of energy around me.
I think I will leave it here for today, thank you for joining the ride and please subscribe if you want to follow along for a time.
All the Love,
Ryan Orion
Ryan Orion 
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