Hello all! thank you for tuning in. Today I feel called to speak on a little bit more of the fasting process and some of the things I am experiencing.
The hunger pains are basically gone. There is no longer a strong desire to eat. It feels like a slow and steady burning that I feel throughout my body. I can feel the changes in my joints, hips, shoulders and jaw as the fire moves to where it is called. I feel pretty clear mentally, but there is some brain fog as some of the old burns away. It is a strange sensation of feeling both congested and acute at the same time. As I drink more water and purge, the more it clears.
There is a steady deliberation to my actions. As I fold laundry or untangle a computer wire, all of my attention is on that one thing. A few days ago I would have attempted to just get it over with so I could move onto the next thing. Now there is a calmness settling in as I need and take more time to do simple things.
Thoughts and memories settle smoothly and easily as well as I am continually brought to the sensation of now. The fire within may have been uncomfortable the first few days, now it is a constant companion reminding me of where I am and what I am doing. I have enjoyed many years of my life as a daydreamer, perhaps this grounding will help manifest some of those dreams into reality.
My vision has expanded. Colors are brighter and more clear. I can see the world around me in a new light. Trees and the shades of green are vibrant and distinct at times, and also blend into a swathe of color and my vision changes. This happens occasionally now, and I expect it to increase along the journey. My sense of smell has increased as well. I can smell a restaurant from far away and enjoy the taste of the food on my tongue as I move by. It is surprising how much the senses increase by the letting go of eating for a time.
There is a sense of my soul coming to the forefront. As the symptoms increase and decrease depending on the day, there is a steady knowing within that is unshaken and enjoying the experience. It is an observation of the physical and external world. It is not so detached as to separate me from reality, but pleasantly detached so that I may view my life as I see fit.
Despite having one of the most emotionally charged days of my life yesterday, I am returning to stillness, to peace. I may share more on this in a later post, I signed the papers to my divorce yesterday. Memories and emotions that have been repressed or ignored from that relationship and many others have bubbled to the surface. I can only see how I was responsible for each painful moment and each “regret”. As they rise I thank them and let them go. They rise with a lot of tears, snot and near heaving, but let them go I do. It is painful to experience, but it is suffering to wallow in it. Joy and peace return in the stillness that follows.
No picture today, perhaps tomorrow
All the Love,
Ryan Orion
Ryan Orion 
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